I became obsessed with the idea of depression as a brain disease. The day later, he committed suicide and although the hospital should have been keeping an eye on him, as he had attempted before, I understood that he had seen me and decided that was the last thing on earth he wanted to see before he passed, so that he could remember my smile.
We lived minute by minute and had our hopes raised and dashed countless times. To say I was lucky is an understatement — I never had to live on the streets.
A few minutes after lying down, snap! I tracked the details in everyday living and saw that I needed to take the lead in recovery. I still carry him with me everywhere I go and have a clear image in my mind of his big, blue eyes opening wide before he snuggled up to my breast for a feed.
Perhaps the right treatment could bring about fundamental changes after all. But I have never got over the fear of homelessness, that feeling of being nowhere.
He was diagnosed with bowel, liver and prostate cancer and each day for him as he said himself was a, "last grasp for life. A few friends tried to help me, and one tried to help me access benefits.
Two days after the operation he began to fail rapidly. I mentioned this to Esther, my Midwife, who suggested we go up to Stroud Hospital and see the duty doctor.
My whole life was influenced by him, my music, food, hobbies, interests and even personality is due to him.
I am so sorry for the people who have lost loved ones in their family and I wish I was someone with magic powers so I could bring all of their loved ones back to life.
He arranged for me to stay with some of his female friends but in my unbalanced state I felt uncomfortable doing this. It was all over the newspapers, the television, and social media, and there was no escape from the fact that she had killed herself.
I studied all the forms of depression, the neurobiology and endless research studies. An "arterial switch", to correct the fact that the two main arteries which come out of the top of the heart were the wrong way round; an operation to correct a narrowing coarctation of the aorta, the main vessel which supplies oxygenated blood to the body; and repairs to a hole in the wall between the bottom two chambers of the heart ventricular septal defect.
I am now currently seeing a Cruse bereavement counsellor and it is really helping me cope better with the loss. My mum was by his side when it happened and she has taught me that you have just got to focus on all of the great things in your life and all you have to be thankful for.
I am proud to show people my lovely photographs.Coping with other people's attitudes has been difficult. In the s we are so removed from death, and the death of a baby is a genuine shock to everyone.
Some people think that referring to the baby will make you upset. But what I want more than anything is for people to say that they are sorry. Your experiences Personal Stories Send us your story.
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